I almost always tie my tie correctly on first attempt, sometimes
second. I make a pot of coffee in the morning, and I bring my
thermos to work. I occasionaly make a second pot when I get
home. I drive slow to and from work to allow more time to observe
clouds and listen to talk radio. News Radio 820 in the
morning. NPR in the afternoons. I enjoy a heavily starched
shirt and a pair of pressed pants. Yesterday, I shined my black
dress shoes. Classical music and movie soundtracks have found
their way onto my iTunes playlist. Legends of the Fall is my
favorite. I try to find my way to bed around 10:30 p.m.
11:00 p.m. seems late to me. Midnight on a school night is
unthinkable. I can no longer translate instant message
abbreviations that kids are using. And I refuse to use
them. I long to have my beard back. I have shared a bottle
of wine with my father.
I am no longer a child.
I recently purchased an animated film.
I loved it. Last week, a principal held a trash can in front of
my face and told me to spit out my gum. I called my mother early
this morning to ask if lenin pants are acceptable when worn with a
shirt and tie. (I pulled it off.) I do not make my
bed. I make students angry when I cut in front of them in the
cafeteria line. They give me questionable looks when I tell them
that I am a teacher. I still love the rock and the
roll. I talk slang. I post on xanga. I
rarely share a "normal" smile in any photograph. Ask Lucas.
The first section I read in any newspaper is the comics. Fox
Trot, Zits, Garfield, Peanuts. Those are my favorites. In
that order.
Apparently, I am not quite an adult.
Do you, my peers, find yourselves in similar circumstances? I no
longer feel like a child. I do not even feel like a college
student. So that makes me an adult? I have no paying job,
and I am still dependent on my parents. I walk around high school
not knowing exactly where I belong. Do I hang around and laugh
with students. Do I sip coffee and gossip about administration
and problem children in the teachers lounge? All in all, I find
myself in an awkward situation. Fortunately I thrive on awkward situations.
More details and stories regarding the teacher's life that I am now slipping into are sure to come. Maybe.
And if this post happens to have a Britney Spears "Not a Girl, Not Yet
a Woman" theme to it, then I swear it is by coincidence and not because
I am listening to her cd right now.
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